First post for 2015

Hello and wow! Happy New Year :D 

It's never too late since we have not done with the first half of the year yet. haha

By the way, banyak benda dah berlaku since my last post. I got engaged in November last year :) Yes, to my long time boyfriend. I am very happy that we finally took another step forward. 

Now, I'm in the middle of menyetelkan apa nak belom settle since the wedding day is kinda near. *facepalm* susah juak mok kawen tok...banyak gilak benda mok pike, mok urus, mok settle etc.

Mun ada bajet lebeh nyaman jak palak dump everything to a wedding planner.....

Memandangkan kita on tight budget and at the same time sikmok lah membazir nak..bok jak mok idup berkeluarga tek kunun..hehehe...So we do everything sendiri. Sik merasa peningnya, sik lah thrill nak :D 

Well, lamak sik nguras sitok juak..I'm gonna nguras more after this! 

Good Friends, Bad Friends.

Yep. Dalam dunia tok, sik semua orang yang kita anggap kawan ya bagus. Bena la nak, bekawan biar seribu tapi mok pande pande juak. Takut kelak terjumpa kawan nak jenis kawan makan kawan. 

Nope. Aku sikda la kawan jenis ya, mintak dijauhkan lah, and for those yang pernah kenak, no it's not too late untuk berhati hati. Takut kelak, kita anggap orang lain macam hati kita juak. Suci. Murni. Ikhlas. Cewahh hahaha but yes, you need to be careful. Mun terluka hati ya kelak sapa mok disalahkan nak? 

Just a reminder to myself, and everyone else yang ada baca tok. I'm surrounded by good friends, and I am happy. Cuma in my case, it's not kawan makan kawan but rather kawan lupak kawan. I'll talk about it next time mun ada rasa mok kaka pasal ya. Well, goodnight uols x

Lone ranger

Ya ampun. 

I did not utter a word today. Bukan sakit kerongkong. Bukan sikmok. Tapi sikda orang dengan klaka. How pathetic is that? Sob sob

Rasa mok pisan jak mok robek hati ini ngenang dirik diam sorang kakya sikda geng. 

What I gotta do? Macam tok rasa aku doe.. Macam gambar debah tok.

Twengg

This feeling.

Ah. My entry yang penoh emosi.

Everyone who drop by my blog mesti angol nangga post mala penoh emosi dan kekecewaan malah kadang kadang happy sik tentu pasal :/  bear in mind, saya berzodiak ikan jadi emosi orang ikan tok naik turun. Huhu 

Well. I am the world worst enemy. I think I hate almost everything that I am not and everything I can't have. When actually, it falls back to me dimana yang pasti yang harus usaha ialah AKU sendiri donk. Blaming the world or things around me saje jer..cos blaming myself would make me feel bad. Aha but true, mun bena gilak nyalah dirik last last dikpun kecewa. Mun yang extreme gik ada nak smpe terejun ke alam lain and you know what I mean..

You know. At the end of the day all you have to do is just accept it and try to do your best to achieve what you want. Lambat or cepat, it does'nt matter. (Except mun kerja ngn posxpress or poslaju la cos ya ng wajib laju..hehe) 

Entri tok k nyedap ati dikpun. Felt really down recently. I wasn't allowed to keep my pets anymore sebab jiran sebelah banyak komplen. Nyaman palak ngomplen sik seda aku tok diam sorang rmh besa daknya tek bujang 3 orang. Kakya ku sikpat nyimpan pusak?? Mcb bena. Kaktok ku nginang asuk bok nya tauk! Pfft

Due to this loneliness lah I tend to focus more on my pitiful life. All this while dapat la distract sikit but nowwww??? Aaah. Marahnyaa! 😤

I come back later. I go lepas marah lok. 

Sambil nangga gambar pemandangan dari kampung that I took last week. I'll write about my kampung trip next time! 

Tenangkan jiwa and this is behind my house in the morning :)

Letting go the extra weight.

Ala.

Bukan setakat extra, Lebih kurang 20kg yg patut dilenyapkan dari badan. Zzz

Kaki dah kedak bengkak dah gne ya? Tok la berat badan yg paling besar dalam sejarah hidup aku. 75kg! I used to be 51kg! (Like 10years ago) Berjaya tek aku ngutip berkilo - kilo lemak selama ya oh. Hebat! Mun emas tek sikpa juak. Huaa

Memandangkan sik lamak gik aku tok mok teng teng teng tenggg so langkah untuk memastikan rupa paras, kesihatan tubuh badan hendaklah diambil aka jaga makan and bersenam. Tett.

I have this 10 weeks plan. Trying to lose at least 1 to 2kg (if possible) per week. No hardcore exercise of course memandangkan background zaman remaja aku tok bukan athlete wakil rumah sukan apatah lagi wakil sekolah. Heh 👌 Cukup la sekadar jogging, yoga, cardio dan set kurus S.(Bukan nama sebenar) Haha yes! Set kurus S. Gonna try it for a month. Mun ada kurengg berat badan lam sebulan ya means its working lah. Last time did tried some other brand. H. (Bukan nama sebenar) and yes it did great to my body! 😌 Unfortunately, I telah tersasar dari landasan and gained back the weight that I lost. Shame on me isn't it? I know. I know.

 Now, tomorrow will be my first day. Will update on it bila berkesempatan k 😉 

Happy New Year 2014

Wow! 

I hope it is not too late you wish you happy new year! Haha

New year, new resolution but reaaaally? Mine might just be carried forward from last year or years and years before last year 😬 hehehe 

Taun tok kamek mok nikah ya jak. K bai!!

In need of spiritual motivation.

Hello.

Dah tido takorang? Hmm panas nya malam tok eh. Plus aku dah tido petang tek ya mata tang eksen jak sikmok lelap. Huhu

Btw, banyak jak barang dipikey ku tok. Haish macam tek tahun 2013 tok rasa macam sik memberi aku kepuasan. ( note : hidup manusia nang sik pernah puas pun. Dasar. - nganok dikpun pfft! ) -,-" aku sik tauk la gne kehidupan takorang, maybe ada yang lebih senang dari aku, or jauh lebih susah dari aku. Maybe takorang ingat aku sik tauk bersyukur. Nope. I'm thankful for I have my family and friends plus a wonderful boyfriend. I'm just not happy being myself. With what I have now, how I'm living my life, just myself. Weird? No. I don't think so. 

You have your own thoughts about life and I have mine. I'm just saying.

I am not saying that I am unhappy to the level that aku mok molah benda bodo, gik ingat Tuhan ku tok koh.

Yes, maybe. No. Not maybe. Yes, Aku ingat Tuhan but then, I think I'm running away from Him. In which, I shouldn't. "Dekat dekatkan la diri dengan Tuhan. Rajin berdoa. He will show you the way" pesan my mom tiap kali balit rumah. Yes mom. I know. Just that aku rasa dirik macam sik layak jak.. Kelak betobat tapi sik lamak. Macam mempermainkan Tuhan la pulak.. Segan. Asal dalam kesusahan jak bok ncarik, asal senang benda duniawi jak dilayan. Ahh. Susah na juak idup oh?

Okay. Agak over statement aku tok but I'm really hoping for a better me next year. Aku yang lebih bait bak kata aku ngan cousin (Bulan) and my best friend (Donna) masa lepak petang tadik. Tetak eksen jak tek but actually I really mean it. Sapa la sikmok jadi orang yang bait bait bah nak? You might be thinking, kenak mesti next year bok mok berubah? Kenak sik kinek? Well, no one dapat berubah overnight sayangs. Everything takes time. Kan? :)

I guess, manusia sikkan pernah dapat lari dari masalah dunia kecuali nya dekat dengan sang Pencipta. Maybe orang kedak aku tok sedang di coba.. Tapi the bible said : "..He will not allow the temptation to be more that you can stand. When you are tempted, He will show you a way out so you can endure it.." (1 Corinths 10:13)

I'm holding on to this. I know my God and He loves me.

Good night. I'm feeling in need of spiritual motivation tonight. So this is what I wrote. Thanks for reading xo