My Girls

Oh. I am missing the girls :3

L-R : Shelley, Me (at the back), Roza, Angie & Teodora (2011)

Downloaded. Jo In Sung.

Been a week I've been trying to download movies and K-Drama. Succeeded though. HAHA The good thing about working in a telecommunication service company. I got to enjoy the free WiFi and all. Since I am a hardcore Internet user, then this is quite good actually.

The bad thing is, I can't really find time to watch whatever I downloaded. -__________- Got back home at 7 PM and already felt sleepy. How's that? Sometimes sleep at 2 AM to avoid "kerugian" sikpat nangga benda nok dah di download tek nak...hehehe...

Well okay, just downloaded "That Winter, The Wind Blows" :) Gonna try to watch it later. Jo In Sung is one of my all time favorite drama man so it's going to be HARD to resist him. Too HOT & CUTE at the same time!

You got crazy too right? HAHAHAHA Well, better go and watch the drama :P

An Opportunity

Will be seeing the girls on Wednesday!!! YAYY!! 

Only the good Lord knows how much i miss them :') Well, not all of them. Just two BUT it is better than don't see them at all.

WE have a lot to talk about, I know! Even for one night.

Will be posting photos :)

The Story of My Heart Part I

It's 9:25am local time.

I was on my bed thinking and I though that I had to get up and say it out.

As I said it on Twitter, "if you kept it all locked inside, your heart will eventually burst". I am not the kind of person who would easily throw my heart out to someone. Not even my closest friends. Not even to my parents. Not even to my sisters. I just can't because I don't know how to start. And because I joke around a lot, laugh a lot, that I tend to cover everything up with my laughter. Nobody should know.

But really. This is too painful.

I don't know how many times have I cried alone in my room just because it's too painful to think about. Yes. Breaking up isn't easy. And I don't feel like breaking up. I feel like I just got divorced. 10 years is a long year.

It's kinda dramatic when things happen so fast right after we celebrated (literally) our 10th anniversary. It's kinda embarrassing when I bragged about everything in my June 20th's entry. All that I said was true. Just that not everything that we planned happen as we wanted them to happen.

As I sat here, I can't stop but thinking about the first year. Everything was good. I was 18. I was a happy girl that have a wonderful boyfriend. I was young. We were. I never felt so in love. Well of course since he was the first one that I gave my heart to.

Time passed by so fast. People said the 6th and 7th year was the most challenging year in a relationship. I don't know if it's reliable or not but yes, we did had a great argument. As much as he hated me to say her name but "Jacklyn" or "Jacqueline" (which ever spelling her name was) I just can't forget the moment. We had a big fight over that. He just wouldn't talk about it until today. He said they were just friends but she told me a different side of  the story. I was shaken because this is something he shouldn't do the first place.

I felt betrayed. Of course I should. But then she told me. Something that I still can remember clearly in my head. "You can't take care of your man, that is why he is after me". I don't know if I ever told him about this but I felt like someone just stabbed me on the back. I hope it wasn't something that he TOLD her.

What if what she said is true? That  I was a bad girlfriend. But if I WAS a bad girlfriend, do you still think that I would forgive him and go this far?

I have a trust issue. It has become a 'major' issue since that day. I'm sorry but I can't take it twice.

We had a great moments. Great memories. We were the best of friends. We laugh a lot.

But things had gone the opposite now. As much as I wanted to talk more about it, I can't help but thinking that this would be the most boring entry I ever wrote. But

I'll come back with Part II.

A Smile That Makes Me Say "I'm Melting".

You think i'm kidding? No i'm not. This man has the most contagious, warmest, beautiful, and honest smile i ever seen. I said "I" ever seen. I don't need you to agree with me though :P As Junsu (2PM) said it on Happy Together, "doesn't matter what you say, what matter is i feel good about it". So while i'm typing this, i'm giggling because i'm overwhelm to admit that GD, yes, G-Dragon of Big Bang has the hottest smile i ever seen that able to make me melt every single time i see his performances or interviews.

He's a wonderful leader. Full of charisma. Very confident, caring, super talented, and his ability to control and take charge of every situation is just amazing and yes, the smile, is just too pure and awful sexy. Naughty flirt kind of smile! Aww i think i can melt just by thinking of his smile. Too dramatic? HAHAHAHA :D

His smile is the best! God. Can't believe i am actually repeating myself. LOL But GD is just one amazing person. 

Most definitely a trend setter ;)

I used to put TOP as my number one favorite. Now it's GD. Sorry, TOP but you're still the sexiest!!!