A Volunteer Form .Yay or Nay?

I am trying to fill the volunteer form for UNICEF Malaysia but I am not a "permanent" working person (in which I may be jobless next month) and I'm in Sarawak. And NOT in Kuching, the city, but in Lawas which is nearer to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah rather than its own state.

How do I fill the "I am free at the following time" since I am not working and well, living in Sarawak. -,- If there are volunteers from Sarawak too it might be difficult to meet up with them so is it possible if I join volunteers team from Sabah instead? :)

I really wanna do this but I am afraid I might disappoint them if I can't make it when they need me to volunteer on the given time and place. Aww. 

Should I wait until I got a job or should I just go for it?

Anyone knows how?

Thank you :)

I'm living my life.

This photo was taken by my cousin, Edwin. This is my father's house (well, our home) in Ba' Kelalan. I grew up in Lawas by the way and only visit "kampung" (village) once in a year. My father said it is important to have a big house since we have a very large family. I agree. 

My father obviously worked very hard to build this for us. I'm very proud of him. People keep saying that our house is too big. It is big but I don't think it is big enough for 7 kids plus grandchildren to stay in for school holidays. -___-" We only have 5 bedrooms anyway.

People who knows my father would say " you're lucky. You come from a wealthy family". Most of the time I would just smile as an answer. Why? They don't know. They only see things. They saw our houses. The knew about our properties and all. Trust me. Lawas is too small. So words go around very fast. But still, they don't know. When I was 7, I stayed in hostel just because Kid no 5 and 6 were there to take care of me while my parents went away to work. I never really stayed with my parents during my teenage years. When I went to high school, they sent me to stay in the hostel til I was 17 too. Why? We don't have a car. Bus or van's fee was expensive. Kid no 5 and 6 went to different school. So they need more money. I didn't complain though. At that age, I was happy cos I can spend more time with my friends.

Have I told you that my parents never celebrate my birthday? Well. That's the truth. I didn't care until the day I saw my friend's album. A picture of her (since she was a year old) up to that day, she always have her birthday photos. Memories. That's what I don't have. Then I realized. I'm living a different kind of life. Wealthy family? That's not how I see it. How can a wealthy family can't afford to celebrate birthdays? We're not poor either. We're just living our life. Just living it. 

I felt sad once a while thinking of all the memories I should have. The photos that I never took.

My parents work hard anyway. Birthdays aren't important. I told myself. I may not have the memories but I'm living a good, blessed, simple life, well, that's good enough. Therefore, when people praises our family, I only answer them with a smile. I have nothing to brag about. I have nothing to tell them. 

Today, I've made a promise. For my future children, I'm gonna make sure they'll have a plenty of memories of their childhood and I'm gonna be next to them all the way. Not that my childhood was bad. My parents have their ways, and I'm gonna have my own.

To Kill Two Birds With One Stone.

One of the many things i'd really love to do is traveling. You know, to see the world and stuff. It's a shame to not be able to see people of different races, languages and cultures and eating different type of foods from the other part of the world. I think it would be just awesome to sit among them and be one of the 'citizen' for a day. 

Here's are the top 5 countries that i MUST visit before i die :

1/ South Korea

2/ France

3/ Switzerland

4/ Italy

5/Japan

Typical eh? LOL well, doesn't mean that i won't be going to Thailand, Indonesia, Spain or etc. It's just these 5 are a must visit country for me. But i think it would be great to start from Thailand or Indonesia because they're the nearest and my friend said both countries have the most beautiful scenery when it comes to beaches. So, i would love to see it myself in the near future :)

One of my thoughts that i have never told anyone is that i would love to give something to the people of the countries that i'm going to visit. Not like i'm gonna do big things or what but it will leave meaningful memories to me which i can treasure at least. The thing is. I wanted to visit one orphanage home in every country that i'm going to visit. Let say, out of my 5 days trip i'd like to dedicate a day or a half to spend with children at the orphanage. It won't hurt to read them stories and spend some money to give them candies and foods right? :) 

I know. It sounds too good to be true but hey, where there is a will there is a way right? It is at least a thing that i can show how grateful and thankful i am to be able to visit their country. I might sound like a humanitarian worker but it is indeed a good thing to do. It will be more time consuming for all the processes and paper works if we apply to be a volunteer. For a person like me who would only be able to travel once a year, it would be easier for me to do it my way. To kill two birds with one stone, perhaps? 

You might wonder. Why the orphanage? Well. I'm not an orphan. All i want to do is to visit the children because they need a lot of attentions and loves. I might be a stranger to them but i just want to make and see them happy because they deserves it.

I have been thinking about this. I'd love to travel with people who would kindly share the same passion as me one day because it would be really helpful in order to make things work :) It's not like i want to create a volunteer group or anything like that. I just thought that, if the country that we visited has given us their good services and wonderful experiences, It would be lovely to give something back in which it is also will give us more meaningful memories.

This is my personal thought. I am not trying to make anyone to do exactly this. It's just something that i thought i would like to do when the time comes. I'm just sharing it here :)

Happy reading.