A Volunteer Form .Yay or Nay?

I am trying to fill the volunteer form for UNICEF Malaysia but I am not a "permanent" working person (in which I may be jobless next month) and I'm in Sarawak. And NOT in Kuching, the city, but in Lawas which is nearer to Kota Kinabalu, Sabah rather than its own state.

How do I fill the "I am free at the following time" since I am not working and well, living in Sarawak. -,- If there are volunteers from Sarawak too it might be difficult to meet up with them so is it possible if I join volunteers team from Sabah instead? :)

I really wanna do this but I am afraid I might disappoint them if I can't make it when they need me to volunteer on the given time and place. Aww. 

Should I wait until I got a job or should I just go for it?

Anyone knows how?

Thank you :)

A Tale of Me : Appreciated. Not.

How funny it is to hope for something to happen when in reality it's not going to happen. Maybe it's because I am a Pisces, I tend to dream a lot and I imagine things that I want to happen instead of living  in the reality world. When they said men are from Mars, women are from Venus, they really DID their homework on that. 

I don't think both sexes will EVER be able to understand each other. 

As I stated before, I am just a person who is living my life. If I put it on a graph, you won't see anything interesting. For 10 years, just like my birthdays, my boyfriend and I never celebrated our anniversary together. For 10 years, I only received a flower ONCE during Valentine's Day. On my birthdays as usual, I never got any birthday surprises or even a birthday cake.

Why? I just wonder why.

Am I not allowed to celebrate ANYTHING in my life? 

Is it because I am used to this, my boyfriend thinks that I wouldn't mind if we don't do anything special on a special day? (Or maybe he thought I should get my own cake or something?)

Well,I do mind. I wish someone would appreciate me. I wish for someone to do something special for me. I wish that I can have something that I can say and remember and keep as a memory. 

Am I complaining now? Maybe. I'm just. I don't know.. Not happy perhaps? Not satisfied? Or the world is just being unfair to me?

I lost my self confidence just because I think nobody thinks I'm special. No matter how well I did in my studies, no matter how loyal I've been in my relationship, no matter how many years I've tried to survive. In the end I just felt like the only person who would cheers for me is. ME.

Somehow, I may not win the affections and loves from people around me but it's okay. I can't go telling them to do something for me or even worse to tell them to appreciate me because wo~ho~hoo that is just - insane. 

I bet God listened and understood. I may lost my confidence but I believe He doesn't want me to give up no matter how hard the situation may become in the future. 

Hey, I still have to live for myself right? Nobody appreciates me? It's okay. I have ME.

I'm just saying.

The Dos and Don'ts in relationship.

Can someone tell me??

When you feel like giving up, give Him a call.

Since I'm a k pop fan or you can say, alert about anything related with Korea entertainment industry, the suicide news of the blooming actress, Jung Ah Yool, is quite shocking. http://www.allkpop.com/2012/06/rookie-actress-jung-ah-yool-passes-away 

How i wish she did not commit suicide and talk to someone instead for advises. What I'm trying to say here is that, I really wish for anyone, not only those actors and actress, singers and musicians, sportsmen to think twice before deciding to end their life in such a tragic way. Despite all the suffering, all the pain, all the fame, all the depression that they felt they can't longer bear, they do still have someone that would listen. GOD.  Yes. God is always listening. Many of us thought that He won't never answer but He never give us a test that is beyond our strength. He knows a lot. As long as we remain faithful and trust in Him. Nothing can shake us. :)

Not only Christians, I do believe that any other religion in this world taught the same thing. I know, at the very moment when people thought of giving up life, they are at their lowest time of their life too. I know. I've been there. Just to share my experience, well actually, I've thought of it. I suffered inside out. I felt unhappy. Unwanted. Depressed. Pressured. Angry with my self. Lost of self control. and I can't think of anything other than to put the misery to an end. But then I realized, I should seek help for the very last time from one person. God. Honestly, I did pray my heart out. Crying on my bed asking "Why this....Why that..Why me..." I told myself that If my heart is still feeling burden the moment I open my eyes, I just thought that, That's it. It's the end. It has to end. I ended up sleeping though. When I woke up, I felt lighter inside. Slowly I regain hope. And today I just hope everyone at least try to seek for the last hope by giving Him a call. (through prayers)

You see, God never leave us alone. You just have to ask :)

Dear readers, I'm just saying. And sharing. I felt the lost of our dearest actress is quite saddening. I love her in the drama 'Love Love' and she was such a beautiful and talented young woman. May her soul rest in peace.