I am really getting old.

As the title said it.

*sigh*

This year. Late 20's. I mean, I am (OBVIOUSLY) at the edge!

*sigh*

I keep telling people I wasn't afraid to grow old.

"Age is just a number" thing.

Man. This does freaks me out a little.

:3

I really need to shorten my wish list this year OR advance everything up. 

Gosh. 

Just crazy.  

I Wanted To Go So Bad!

:C

I really wanna go for Big Bang's Galaxy Concert. I know it's in October, but the tickets are selling on July 28th! I KNOW it's gonna be very hard to get my hands on them. I don't know if I can. So worry lah...

And guess what, I'm so broke right now (this month) that I don't even have a 50 bucks in my account. -,-'

I need fast money. I need money by next week. I'm working but you know when they freeze your money for 3 months and you can't do anything about it? Well that's what happening to me. Not like I don't have money at all. I only get it by August. And August seems so FAR AWAY!!!!

Haiya.

Fast money. Fast money. I should buy 4D or something :D buy 1 ringgit, mana tau kena...and if my dad finds out that's the end of me! HAHAHA

A friend said she got some good business for me. I wonder why she haven't call me yet. 

When I said good business, don't get me wrong. I'm doing a HALAL one. *peace*

So, I'm still waiting for her call.................

WAITING.............................................................

Job Hunt.

Selling my degree is not easy.

Been e-mailing companies, registering with the government and all. I am still on hunt until today.

Gotta keep on moving or else, I'll just eat stone and sand for I am super broke.

*facepalm*

I Am Okay.

Printer got stuck. Electricity is out. Works are piling up. One is half way done but I can't do much since I can't print them out -.- Anddd best part is, I need to show them to the supervisor today. Pfft


So what am I gonna do?


Why July? Why are you being like this to me?


Was about to cry but then I decided not to. So I prayed. 


I think I am okay with this cos there are more people out there who are facing a more difficult time.


Yes. I am okay.

The Dos and Don'ts in relationship.

Can someone tell me??

Lapar / Hungry

Mun lapa jam tok la paling molah otak bingong. -,- bingong mike makan ke sik. Mun makan, gemok. Mun sik makan stress. Argh.

Mun lapa mintak barang k anyang-anyang jak sikhal.. Tok mintak gik makan mi..apa reti perut tok bah? Tapi nak mi kolok la paling best.

Mun di Samarahan tek, dah agak dah stall burger kat simpang Bazaaria ya.. Mun sik pun kontek Teo mbak nya g makan mi or roti canai di kede Mamak or Siang-Siang. Ya rabi eh rindu bena ku ngan sidaknya time lapa macam tok. HAHAHA sik sangka rindu sebab lapa p logik lah sebab mun kat rumah sitok sikda orang nok sanggup neman makan mun dah masok jam kedak tok. Sigek gik boring mun makan sorang... :/

Ada paham? Translation :

I'm so hungry. Being hungry at this hour gives me headache. Should I eat or not? If I choose to eat, I get fat. If I don't eat, I get stressed out. Argh.

If I'm craving for something light would be okay. But my tummy is asking for noodles! What's up with this tummy? But "mi kolok" is the best though.

If I'm in Samarahan, I would have gone to the burger stall at the Bazaaria junction right now. Or else, would have called Teo so we can go for noodles or roti canai at Mamak or Siang-Siang. Gawd. I miss my friends at this hour. HAHAHA How funny it is to miss them when I'm feeling hungry but logically here, there's no one that want to accompany to eat at this hour already. Some more, it is kinda boring to eat alone.. :/

Therefore, alu rasa aku harus padah kat sitok. Cos I am going to bed with a moody tummy and will wake up early to have breakfast with mom and sister!

So good night!! :)

10th Anniversary And I'm Still Loving You.

Dearest boyfriend,


June 21st is a good day isn't it? :) It marks our 10th year together. I would like to thank you for being the most loyal, wonderful, loving, understanding and caring boyfriend to me!!! Saranghae <3


Dearest Boyfriend, 


For all the years we have spent together as boyfriend/girlfriend, I would be lying if i said it wasn't tiring. You know, when we have to take care of each other. Asking questions everyday. "Have you eaten?" "How's work?" "Did you take your medicines?" "Why did you spend so much on car accessories?" etc I KNOW that's how a relationship suppose to be, but knowing you since I'm 18 up until today was *Pheww! need a LOT of hard work. (Not that I mean you're a hard-to-take-care-of kinda guy) just that adjusting everything to make both sides happy is quite challenging. You know the 1st year I thought our relationship was just going to be MY experiment since I'm only dating Nick Carter in high school :'D and a few of non serious relationship which usually a one sided love. *No. You're wrong. I was the one who dumped them* And did not expect you're gonna stick THIS long! :')


My dearest Boyfriend,


I might be a very silly girlfriend to you. The one with the most rebellious attitude. The one that you just want to forget immediately during our stupid fights. The one you wish you never knew when I got crazy and attack you with harsh words. I have a different versions of expressing myself. I know, you got tired. But I know you won't give up that easy on me. Right? You knew me too well to let all that ruin everything. 


Boyfriend,


You are the second most patient person (after my father) in this world. Whenever I got mad, I got upset, I got depressed and dump it all on you, you would just take it and come back tomorrow with a better mood like it never happen. It pisses me off sometimes, because you make me look bad. (TT..TT) frankly speaking. 
When you did not contact me for a few days (usually when I told you not to) I got scared but I would tell myself  " Take that. That's what you want, and you got it" *I prepared well actually* HAHAHA but I know you always go soft for me right? *I hope I'm right or I'll kill you* :'D Well, I'm just glad you *usually* admit that everything was your fault (EVERYTHING) so relationship is saved. Once again.
The fact that we treated each other like friends might be one of the factors that keeps us together. We fought like friends and it strengthen our relationship more instead of breaking us apart. :)


Dear Boyfriend,


I know we have gone through a lot together. Since our family accepted our relationship well now *after keeping it a secret for 8 years* I think it is about time for us to start a family ;) What about in 2-3 years from now? I think I'm done being single. 


P/S Dearest boyfriend, if you're reading this can you get a little bit romantic sometime? You're pretty lame and lack of skills in making a girl happy. Learn from GD. He's goooood.


And boyfriend, thank you for being my best friend, my right hand and my angel. You're the best boyfriend ever and I wouldn't ask for more from you. Thank you for loving me from the first day we met until today.
Pie, I love you and let's get it going.

When you feel like giving up, give Him a call.

Since I'm a k pop fan or you can say, alert about anything related with Korea entertainment industry, the suicide news of the blooming actress, Jung Ah Yool, is quite shocking. http://www.allkpop.com/2012/06/rookie-actress-jung-ah-yool-passes-away 

How i wish she did not commit suicide and talk to someone instead for advises. What I'm trying to say here is that, I really wish for anyone, not only those actors and actress, singers and musicians, sportsmen to think twice before deciding to end their life in such a tragic way. Despite all the suffering, all the pain, all the fame, all the depression that they felt they can't longer bear, they do still have someone that would listen. GOD.  Yes. God is always listening. Many of us thought that He won't never answer but He never give us a test that is beyond our strength. He knows a lot. As long as we remain faithful and trust in Him. Nothing can shake us. :)

Not only Christians, I do believe that any other religion in this world taught the same thing. I know, at the very moment when people thought of giving up life, they are at their lowest time of their life too. I know. I've been there. Just to share my experience, well actually, I've thought of it. I suffered inside out. I felt unhappy. Unwanted. Depressed. Pressured. Angry with my self. Lost of self control. and I can't think of anything other than to put the misery to an end. But then I realized, I should seek help for the very last time from one person. God. Honestly, I did pray my heart out. Crying on my bed asking "Why this....Why that..Why me..." I told myself that If my heart is still feeling burden the moment I open my eyes, I just thought that, That's it. It's the end. It has to end. I ended up sleeping though. When I woke up, I felt lighter inside. Slowly I regain hope. And today I just hope everyone at least try to seek for the last hope by giving Him a call. (through prayers)

You see, God never leave us alone. You just have to ask :)

Dear readers, I'm just saying. And sharing. I felt the lost of our dearest actress is quite saddening. I love her in the drama 'Love Love' and she was such a beautiful and talented young woman. May her soul rest in peace.